Logan Update!

Sorry I've been MIA for a while. I hate when a blog that I read doesn't get updated enough, so I need to really make an effort to try to update often:)

Logan is great! I mean, really great! His EEG was normal, which was expected. So when I had the follow up with the pedi, I told him that if he was still convinced that Logan's episodes were caused by reflux, that it was time to medicate. He agreed that it couldn't hurt to give it a try. He prescribed him Nexium. He takes that once a day. And....no episodes in almost 4 weeks!! I'm cautiously optimistic, but seeing how Logan's episodes have been known to disappear for weeks at a time then start up again, I'm not convinced we've seen the last of them. But for now, things are great.

He has definitely turned a corner with his colic/fussiness. He is so much happier. He is teething, so there is still some whining, and unhappiness. But being able to get things done around the house has been much easier. He is content to sit in his bouncy chair, or swing in his swing, or even just lay on the floor. I even have moments where raising 3 kids is *gasp* easy!

I am praying that Logan keeps improving, and we have no setbacks. It is so hard to believe that he will be 4 months old in less than a week. The time has really flown by, and as difficult as those first few weeks/months were...I miss them.  I feel like him being hospitalized when he was still so itty bitty, and for so long really stole all of those "firsts" from me. I mean when i look at pics of him from the night before he was hospitalized, and then compare them to pics of him the day he was released. He looks so different. He changed so much while he was in the hospital, and I was so busy praying for him to get better that I missed it. I'm trying to really make the most of his "babyhood" Since this is possibly our last baby, I want it to last forever:(

Happy Mother's Day!!

Happy Mother's Day to all of the mamas out there! I hope everyone was pampered, and loved, and told over and over again how amazing they are!
Being a mom, it's tough. Every single day I'm amazed at just how tough it is. And that's on a good day. On the bad days, I basically just tell myself that I am not cut out for it, and whoever allowed me to be responsible for these little lives really just had no clue! But, the rewards. Oh man! Hearing Joel say, "I want to kiss your face mommy" Hearing Ciena say "Today was the best day I ever had!" And seeing Logan's eyes follow me around the room, like I am the most important thing to look at. It's a really amazing thing. And even though I have a lot of days when I feel like a complete failure, and my kids cannot stand to look at me......I remember.
I am their mom, the only one they want when they're sick, or scared, or sad, or even happy. I know them best. I know that Ciena likes her meat cut in strips. I know that Joel doesn't like yogurt that has fruit in it. I know that Logan will instantly calm down if he is swaddled. I know everything about them, because I am their mom. Happy Mother's day mommies! I hope you are all as blessed as I am<3